geekangel

Well hello deviantart!
It's been ages since I've updated this site and so I figured I would clean up and post something up to let you know that I will be putting new stuff up here. Exciting isn't it!

Life has been busy for the last couple of years, but now that I'm just going to school I finally have some free time to work on art again. Sadly I think that all of my followers to stop using deviantart. =/

Regardless, I hope someone enjoys the stuff that I will be posting. I can guarantee will be any good since I'm a little bit out of practice.

Cheers,
Nichole

I don't know if this is considered running away or not, but I am hoping to move to AZ late this summer. He's made no move to stop me, just told me to take care of myself, so I guess he doesn't really care if I'm around or not. Well, I knew that he didn't really want to save us anyways, so I don't know why I was thinking that he would try to stop me or chase me or anything like that. I guess that I am just a hopeless romantic. Not that it does me any good.

On other topics, I have a scanner again, so I'll probably have some pictures up again here soon. <3

He doesn't even care if I live or die. What is there to live for if my love will never be returned. He refuses to even consider trying anymore. I don't want to move on, and I  know I never will. If he wants to just go on alone, then what is there left for me to live for? People cannot live without love. Third time is the charm right? Besides, he genuinely doesn't care. He hates me for loving him. He said himself that breaking up with me was the dumbest thing he ever did. Why doesn't he want to make things right then? He's not being straight with me. First he said he needed a break for him. Now, it's things just weren't working out and we weren't meant to be. If we weren't meant to be then I'm better off out of the way. All I'm doing is making his life harder. And that's what it's all about right? His life. What I want and need is an after thought. With me out of the way he can live it the way that he wants to.

Sorry to hurt the rest of you, but there really is no other choice to be made. There is nothing left for me without Derek and obviously I am ruining his life by living. I would always love him, and that's what hurts him more than anything it seems. I would do anything to make him happy, and he knows that. This is just the last thing that he will ask of me to make him happy and it's apparently the only thing that I will have ever succeeded at doing for him.

He said he always kept his promises. But that was a lie. He promised that he would love me, "forever and a day" but it seems that he never actually did if he would give up this easily on everything that we had. But "there is no we" so I guess that there really is no point. I'll see you all on the other side, too bad I'm not sure weather I'll get there or not.

I assume that anyone who's reading this has been keeping up with everything that is going on, because I don't want to go through all of it again. Now though... I don't know what to think anymore. I'm doing things that I planned to do and Derek is doing things that he planned to do... but now we're not together... and the plans that we made are suddenly shattered. It hurts you know He won his fight... and I've been planning for months to be there celebrating with him when he did. He's getting his tattoo, and I'm not going to be the one with him when he gets it done. I can stand on my own two feet, but it's awfully hard right now. I just keep telling myself that true love conquers everything. So, if he is my true love everything will work out. If he's not... then I'll just... have to live like this. I can live without love, right? Right.

I'm just trying to keep my chin up, but I'm never motivated enough to do anything these days, I have hard time even getting out of bed these days. But I'll get through it. Everything will work out fine in the end.

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A quick history.
<size=1>The Kingdom is older than anyone knows, and there are many many stories about how it was first conquered by Ferius Mauntell, whose family still rules the kingdom today. Although it is not known how many greats it would be, King Garris Mauntell is ruling, and in the 14th year of his reign.

In legend there is one thing that all kings need fear, and that is the anomalies. The anomalies are prophesied to be a small group of mages that will bring about the downfall of the Mauntell line. They have always been regarded as legend and myth, but lately more and more powerful mages have been birthed, and it's starting to worry King Garris.

He began to stomp out magic of all kinds, especially if it was not from a noble family. But even noble children are not safe if their powers are too strong or their magic is not one common to the family line. Slowly but surely, magic is fading from the lives of the common people...

250 years later... Present Day
The young Prince Marick has been crowned King, generations after the Mad King Garris's death. Magic is all but gone from the streets, only the royal line and a few of the greater lords lay any claim to magic in their families. The few children who are born with powers are born weak or middling, mostly water and aire mages, and are taught by the Grand Mage. The Grand Mage is old, near to ancient and is one of the few who remembers being told of first hand about when magic was common.

But lately... more and more children have been born with powers. More and more there are noble children accidentally setting things on fire. The young King Marick is not afraid, but some of his councilors remember the prophecy that drove his ancestor to madness.

One of his Lords takes matters into his own hands, and begins to dispose of any children who he thinks are too powerful, or out of place. When the King finds out about this he tries to get rid of the Lord, but it is too late. He has already gathered enough to his cause that after his death the murders continue.

In an effort to protect any children born with powers, Kind Marick sends them to a school in the mountains, with the Grand mage to protect them from the murders that he cannot stop.

Little does he know the anomalies are already grown and hiding in his own country, even if they do not yet know who they are, or their own destiny...

Come and join us at the magic school, play a teacher or a student with strong powers or weak. What's your destiny?

Or... play any of a number of other characters, common or high born. Play a warrior or a gentle lady. You decide!

We have 25 different character classes at All in Motley. We have 9 types of magic at 4 levels. We have teaching positions open for characters 25 and above. And many things to do in the rest of our world as well. School term starts on the 20th, or at 20 members, whichever comes first. Currently we have 15 members, all of whom are active. This site gets posted on almost every day so we are very active. We're a semi-literate site, so we have no one liners. We also have an active OOC area where you can talk about anything you like or play games with other members.

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